A Nugget or a Rock

I love a good Bible study retreat! Time to get away and listen uninterrupted to the Word of God. And most always I have prayed that God would give me a "nugget", a truth, a Word, something to ponder, a word of encouragement. This weekend was such a time. And I had asked the Lord for a nugget. But this time it wasn't a sweet word of encouragement like I was secretly wanting...it was a rock of conviction.

We heard a gentleman tell a story....He was preaching at an outdoor service and they had predicted rain all week, the morning of the service dawned with pouring rain, the man continued to beg the Lord for the rain to stop, just as he had all week, and while standing on the platform in pouring rain, arms lifted high, angry at the Lord, not understanding why the Lord had withheld this blessing -

the Lord spoke..."you have been more concerned with the absence of rain, than with the presence of Me."

I am still moved to tears as I write those words.


Holy Father, God of the Universe, Maker of heaven and earth,

Forgive me:
forgive me for seeking the praise of men...... more than the presence of You
forgive me for seeking the lack of problems.... more than the presence of You
forgive me for seeking blessings..... more than the presence of You
forgive me for seeking health.... more than the presence of You
forgive me for seeking to finish my list.... more than the presence of You
forgive me for seeking comfort ..... more than the presence of You
forgive me for seeking financial peace.... more than the presence of You
forgive me for seeking this world..... more than the presence of YOU.

Father give me a heart that is unsatisfied with anything but You.
in the saving name of Jesus, Amen

I've got some seeking to go do.
much love,
Teresa